Recently I just quit Affiliate Marketing. I returned all my paid tools. I also decided to push and hold off on Life Coaching for now.
There’s just so many factors in my life.
One of the things that I’m really proud of is that I said no to these things so I could say yes to other things.
And another thing I’m proud of?
Learning about cryptocurrency and jumping into it. I even bought a course on it. I think investing into things like these is fun. I really enjoy value investing. And it really brings friends like Steven and Joe together and gives us something to talk about.
But even more than just “jumping” into what’s “hot”, this feels fun again. It’s really fun just jumping into a crazy opportunity. Honestly I don’t know how this is going to go down, but at least I can enjoy the journey.
Another thing that I’m proud of is the fact that I signed up for Accelerator and jumped on my first call to see how it worked. It’s come a long way since before and I love how I’m finally accounting for my needs as an obliger.
Another thing that I said no to recently was my coach. I just wasn’t using him enough. As an obliger, there just isn’t enough outward accountability for me. Maybe it’s considered babysitting, but I need more than that.
One thing I want to work on coming back to work is actually not stressing so much. I want to make pharmacy just fun again. If that means sales taking a dip that’s fine. At the end of the day the company doesn’t care about me. At the end of the day I’m losing my hair trying to overachieve.
Why not build my own assets and overachieve in my life instead of burning out? I am paid to do certain things. I will try my best, but I will not put my health in front of work anymore. Fuck that.
Another thing that I will do is promise to surround myself around really intelligent and smart people. This is one of my needs. I realized this at Forefront when I realized… Maybe I’m not the smartest person in the room.
And that was actually an amazing feeling. Why?
I got to learn from so many people and it feels good learning.
Another thing I am proud of myself for doing is participating in the Mental Mastry program and commenting on other people’s comments.
Even though I’m up insanely early ~2-3 AM… fuck you early morning insomnia! I’m still here. I’m still here ready to play the game. Maybe I don’t win all the time, but at least I’m making reps and taking swings.
What does that say? Constantly pushing myself is important.
But honestly as well, I’ve been resting up and putting my needs first at times. Especially sleep. If I don’t optimize this, then I will end up inevitably fucking myself over.
Sleep is essential for my mood, diet, energy, and productivity. It’s the one thing I constantly neglect and I need to focus on it again. Even as I’m typing thing out right now, I realize I’m neglecting sleep.
I need outward accountability for it. Maybe I should ask Kyessa or Sandy to help me with this and just ask me a few questions on my google documents or drive.
As far as how I’m feeling, I’m actually pretty happy these days. I realize that I need more fun in my life and things don’t have to be so serious. I realize more about myself and my tendencies.
But even more I’m relearning how to love myself and give myself space. I need to give to myself before giving to others… especially after that whole influenza thing.
That influenza stage really sucked the energy and killed me man. But it also made me extremely grateful for my own health.
Apart of me doesn’t want to go back to work. Apart of me realizes that I’m a failed entrepreneur. But one thing I also realize is that I am man that keeps trying to no matter what. Who will do anything and try anything to rewrite his story.
I think the huge financial decisions I’ve made will pay off. It’s okay to be wrong. And honestly I’m working with what I know best and what I think is the best decision at this moment.
This constant forgiveness for myself is what matters. I love myself. PALABRA.